I'm going to lose weight.
I'm not sure how I'm going to do it, but I don't want to be sick of looking at myself in the mirror. I'm not obese, but I might as well be. And I'm not one of those people who wants to be so skinny that you can see bones poking out. I actually enjoy having curves. Just not so damn many of them. I like curves, not rolls.
So, I'm going to put this online. Chances are nobody will ever read it, or if they do I'll never know because no one will be interested enough to care. But maybe just having the possibility of somebody find it will be enough motivation to make it work. The gods know I don't have the will-power to do it just for myself anymore.
So on the off-chance that someone will actually read this, I'll write a bit about myself.
I am a single mother of a two and a half year old boy. I adopted him, he was my nephew. We lived in California til the adoption was complete and now we live in New Mexico with my sons grandparents. I work at Walmart (though I'm desperately trying to find someplace else to work, because I'm convinced that half of my current problem is that I HATE my job and its depressing). My goal is to be a journalist, or possibly do something in computer science.
And the most important bits: I'm 5'4" and 196 lbs. People don't believe I weigh that much when they see me (unless they're just trying to be nice, which annoys me cause I know how big I am and I don't want people lying to me). My goal is to be between 130 lbs and 140 lbs. I think that would look best on me, but its not a fixed goal. My biggest goal is mostly to be fit.
I've made a list of a few things I'm going to start doing to hopefully get in better shape.
1. Track Calorie and food.
2. Exercise. A LOT!
3. Drink plenty of water.
4. STOP DRINKING SODA!
5. Go to bed early, get up early.
Some of these things seem unbearably obvious, but its so easy to just not bother, especially with working at Walmart. Especially on those days where I just can't stand my boss, its so easy to go on my break and walk up to the check-out line where every possible soda that exists is just waiting to be picked up to make to day seem bearable. And its almost impossible after a long, awful day of cleaning up after others peoples messes to just go to the deli and grab a big thing of their awful/delicious mac and cheese and a fork and mow down. And the early to bed, early to rise thing. Doesn't sound complicated right? Wrong. I'm a night owl, so I'll sit up crazy late reading a book, or watching videos on youtube, or in general doing anything but going to bed, til I realize its 1 am and I have to work the next day. So I think writing these things down and pinning them up will help......at least, I hope they will. If the constant reminder isn't enough then I don't know what will be.
I hate that one of my biggest problems is that I don't even eat all that much. I have maybe one big meal a day, and then just a couple of snacks. Unfortunately, those snacks are never the best possible options. Its unbelievably convienant to have a Sonic right on the road I take to get home from work every night (at 10 pm, which is to late to make a decent meal, so I might as well just grab a burger from Sonic, right? See my problem? Sigh). So on top of learning which foods to eat, I actually need to eat more. While a Sonic burger does have several hundred calories, its not actually enough to make up the number of calories one is supposed to have, especially not for someone who spends all day walking back and forth across a quarter mile wide store and lifting heavy boxes.
In conclusion, I want to lose weight and maybe this will do the trick. If you enjoy my crazy ramblings, feel free to comment anytime. I would love to hear from you. I'll probably only post once a week, even if its just to say I don't have anything to say because I completely blew the week. Meh.
Current weight: 196
Goal weight: 130
Lbs to goal: 66
Weekly goal: 1-2 lbs
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